365 days of gratitude! 2014

/365 days of gratitude! 2014
365 days of gratitude! 2014 2015-01-03T04:34:26+00:00

I am grateful for the beauty I see everywhere. I am grateful for an open mind. I am grateful for rest, silence, space, ease, and clarity. I am grateful for such abundance of all I need to survive, create, and share. I am grateful for a family who loves road tripping together. I am grateful for a growing awareness, acceptance, allowance for all the twists and turns of life, myself, and others. I am grateful for cycles and growth, new beginnings, and mystery. I am grateful for hiking desert trails with the whole extended family. I am grateful for this body and all it holds, supports, conveys, and transforms. I am grateful for this amazing omelet brought to me in bed. I am grateful for moms help w house and farm; for her companionship. I am grateful for our fantastically creative and fun advent calendar activities. I am grateful for a warm relaxing hot tub to pop into when I take the time. I am grateful for increasing harmony and acceptance of the challenges. I am grateful for a peaceful parent visit. I am grateful for the amazing success of the cold frames. I am grateful for the solstice, growing light; the sun. I am grateful for this my last day of treating patients in the capitola office. I am grateful for this sunrise. I am grateful for the farmer’s market. I am grateful for beverly’s make n take craft days with C. I am grateful for my freedom. I am grateful for music. I am grateful for my hot pack. I am grateful for sheila, claudia, and meeting new neighbors michael and garett. I am grateful for yoga. I am grateful for the rain, the compost, the warm growing beds. I am grateful for each new day. I am grateful for cleansing tears. I am grateful for a spare bedroom when I need to be alone. I am grateful for the silence. I am grateful for a delicious smelling noble fir in the living room trimmed by good friends and a coziness to share. I am grateful for row covers for my winter crops and all the alliums in the ground! I am grateful for ginger and jt, sharing their family holiday w/us. I am grateful for Simrit’s life and our short time working together. I am grateful for Heidi reaching out and coming to visit. I am grateful to have peaceful, grounded, open, loving friends who communicate! I am grateful to move through writing blocks! and reveal what they were hiding. I am grateful to live up the street from a furniture shop–endless large cardboard! I am grateful to be wrapping up this chapter of capitola work. I am grateful to have a 5 day weekend staycation upcoming! I am grateful to be healthy, and mentally sound. I am grateful for the smell of fresh pine chips as Andy cuts the big trees. I am grateful for casper and forrest’s weekend fun together. I am grateful for jeffrey finally agreeing to teach the daoist canon initiations. I am grateful to have walked in the city. I am grateful for the chance to see my old colleagues and friends. I am grateful for the rain that is to come this week. I am grateful that we are healthy and able-bodied. I am grateful to learn of holly’s shared love of farming. I am grateful for kiran’s presence in my life. I am grateful for my patients and my ability to help them. I am grateful to be home with a fire and my boys for these next few hours. I am grateful for so many garden resources online! I feel readier than ever this fall. I am grateful for this warm weekend day and still in bed at 1pm! I am grateful for the composts turned cold frames! I am grateful for the writing class about to begin. I am grateful for the shift happening with Capitola office and mondays soon free. I am grateful for enjoyment, effortlessness, being available for my own heart. I am grateful for the increasing number of times I take in the sky each day. I am grateful for a deeper, yet lighter, stepping in. I am grateful for flower essence sprays. I am grateful for this sugar/flour/dairy detox and 4 days at the gym. I am grateful for a long night of snuggles. I am grateful for kiran and divergent movie night. I am grateful for rainy halloween and laughing with stephanie about steam punk, house remodels, and google express. I am grateful for the quiet of the office, and focusing on healing. I am grateful for Breitenbush hot springs. I am grateful for the rain that kissed our land and softens the soil for weeding and planting. I am grateful for the new moon solar eclipse inipi ceremony with nupa. I am grateful for a growing trust and ease. I am grateful for the soft soft robe. I am grateful for the abundance of love. I am grateful for a fun family day. I am grateful for sunday cuddles and pancakes. I am grateful for indian summer–I can still plant… I am grateful for the growing sapotes, cherimoyas, melons and squash! I am grateful for a newly filled hot tub! I am grateful for dreams of infinite games via pathfinder portal I am grateful for effortless, spacious, joyful flow. I am grateful for the UCSC Arboretum and all its lovely volunteers and plants. I am grateful for an exquisite mommy deedle day playing at open studios. I am grateful for magical antique buttons and peggy the potter. I am grateful for the wispy clouds, blue sky, growing melons. I am grateful for a bubble bath and clean hair. I am grateful for a fun game of chess in bed. I am grateful for waking to a sunny day in mid October on the farm! I am grateful for an opportunity to make income fom rentals. I am grateful for moments of rest. I am grateful for cracks, opening to light. I am grateful for the most comfortable bed in all existence here in the lennon room (krishnamurti foundation). I am grateful for the radiant silver dao, pouring through each pore of consciousness, silently holding, nourishing, and stripping away.. I am grateful for this body and this earth which house this magnificent dream. I am grateful for Keynote and the creativity it lends to a talk. I am grateful for B’s technical help and willingness ‘I am at your service’. I am grateful for C’s spontaneous dance show. I am grateful for Honey getting more and more calm and loving. I am grateful to be sleeping again. I am grateful for the folks who are coming today to hear me speak. I am grateful to have a retreat in Ojai this week! I am grateful to be learning about hand print analysis. I am grateful we seem to have found a way to inspire C to do school and chores. I am grateful for stroopwaffles. I am grateful for the rain. I am grateful for my legs. I am grateful for my heart. I am grateful for my hands. I am grateful for the fertile soil. I am grateful for my patients. I am grateful for my health care providers. I am grateful for the support and love of B and C. I am grateful for the healing of my right foot/ankle/tibia/knee/hip/sacrum. I am grateful for the quiet and allowing myself to seek it out. I am grateful for this Earth workshop which deepens my understanding as I prepare the content. I am grateful for ‘relational presence’ and learning to receive attention without anxiety. I am grateful for the chance to bring beauty and magic through 5 element teachings. I am grateful for Trees. I am grateful for the return of some intimacy in my heart, to my inner child and body. I am grateful for my sweetie who can make delicious food out of nothing! I am grateful for this stunning earth and her beautiful peaks, valleys, hills, and caves. I am grateful for the survival skills I have learned. I am grateful for the full moon chanting tonight. I am grateful for parents who will welcome me and my family. I am grateful for glacier international peace park. I am grateful to all brave women w the courage to write their truth. I am grateful for a body still willing to heal. I am grateful for Kiran. I am grateful for the parts of me holding fast to Love, Earth, Space. I am grateful for the music of Snatam Kaur. I am grateful for my boy’s tenderness. I am grateful for my growing acceptance and softening of need. I am grateful for vacation with my most loved. I am grateful for the words that will set me free. I am grateful for michael ray, loving and forgiving and explaining white supremacy to a white congregation. I am grateful for sweet honey in the rock–soothing, inspiring. I am grateful for the autumn misting its way in. I am grateful for a writing flow, the new willingness. I am grateful for being able to plant a fall garden! I am grateful that B has overcome the neck scare! I am grateful to have herbs and know how to use them. I am grateful to have so many passions that I must choose. I am grateful for Kiran and an Ojai getaway/enrichment retreat come October. I am grateful to have the foresight to plan Breitenbush for Oct 22! I am grateful for the life force of the fruit trees. I am grateful for my ‘1st world problems’ eg land ownership and when to retire! I am grateful for the gupster. I am grateful for elena storer and EMDR integration. I am grateful for maggie and her eo flower essence blends. I am grateful for sherry who is after all a loyal friend. I am grateful for Ariel, and the writing, where it is taking me. I am grateful for the supermoon, perseid shower and maggie. I am grateful for Nico and his massage table. I am grateful for mommy deedle days. I am grateful for ginger’s friendship and love. I am grateful for these new people I am working with, their open hearts and willingness to heal. I am grateful for a saturday that demands nothing from me, and a new me who is asking much, much less. I am grateful that I am not binging or thinking about binging generally these days. I am grateful for my sweetie’s giving nature and humor. I am grateful I got to have a brother if just for a time. I am grateful to the work week which provides contrast to FRIDAY NIGHT!!! I am grateful to sue and glenn carter (IRIS) for sharing their time and fun plans. I am grateful to Munes and Marnette for helping me put words to Trust, Heavenly plane of light(ness), distraction techniques of joy, peace, gratitude in all their simplicity… I am grateful for my body. I am grateful for my relationship in its healing flow. I am grateful for the women of love magic. I am grateful for my herbal formula. I am grateful to have only ‘first world problems.’ I am grateful for Honey, soft and brushed and clean. I am grateful for have 8 huge containers less of poison oak on our land. I am grateful to have a much cleaner house than before the weekend. I am grateful for chocolate. I am grateful to know I do best without dairy and some willpower to behave. I am grateful to know I must go to the gym for sanity, and some willpower to abide. I am grateful for ariel’s writing course, the opportunity and challenge. I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for bees, swarming or no and for my mentors. I am grateful for the opportunity to teach. I am grateful for Liliana sharing her gratitude of our work together. I am grateful for an open mind that lets me see my patterns and try to shift them. I am grateful for coffee to help my headache and get things done. I am grateful to have options in catering this retreat! I am grateful to poppy for making our camping trip fab. I am grateful to art the bee rescuer for his time and the gift of wild bees, honey, kindness and generosity. I am grateful to christine yang for being such an amazing woman–and patricia. I am grateful to be retreating with so many good friends. I am grateful to live near the ocean. I am grateful to have the earth, and elements speak through me. I am grateful to be working with clay. I am grateful to have an empty inbox (it’s the little things ;).. I am grateful to be living a long held dream to lead a women’s retreat w great people at a hotsprings with ceremony, play, great food, dancing and LOVE! I am grateful to be working on the book again. I am grateful for the clear skies summertime and happy new bees with a feast of lavender and sunflowers! I am grateful for sand dollars, and eucalyptus seeds; nature mandalas! I am grateful for mercury direct. I am grateful for poetry, and music and art. I am grateful for divine inspiration. I am grateful to have a cosmological perspective that feels inclusive and resonant. I am grateful for jeffrey yuen. I am grateful for this sleepy end of the day. I am grateful for the basement, and time to paint plant naming sticks. I am grateful to have completed most all of the house plant potting. I am grateful to be semi prepared for this upcoming trip. I am grateful for Chuck and Zeina and their ongoing support. I am grateful for Art and a new chance at bees. I am grateful for herbs helping me get back on track. I am grateful to have had a nice long chat w/mom and ron yesterday during my drive. I am grateful B is taking on the food prep for our whitney trip. I am grateful for Ariel’s writing workshop. I am grateful for cooler weather today and a chance to get in melons and pumpkins. I am grateful to be gradually cleaning out the house. I am grateful for the notion that source is love. I am grateful to be leading this retreat. I am grateful for B making dinner. I am grateful for C snuggles. I am grateful for nano coming back safely. I am grateful for nanu’s wedgewood stove. I am grateful for the soft face and fur of my doggie. I am grateful for 7 fresh weed-free garden beds for flower plantings. I am grateful a few of the bees could be recovered. I am grateful B got to do a bucket list item (shasta) and I got some time to deep clean the basement). I am grateful I had an hour with heidi texting, even if she will have no recall… I am grateful for my boy, his kindness, his humor, his hugs. I am grateful for a visit with Christina today–great food, fun company, joy. I am grateful for more girl time tonight–women farmers at that! with sons! I am grateful our home is cool on hot days. I am grateful the sun rises above the hill at 7:02 am and the day begins warmly. I am grateful for zeina. I am grateful for Maya Angelou who passed over yesterday I am grateful for choice. I am grateful for the hope in a new day. I am grateful for this body which still supports so much of my needs and expressions. I am grateful for those who believe in me, and the parts of me that still have faith. I am grateful for Honey licking my tears today. I am grateful for Deedle being so easy going and sweet. I am grateful for coconut oil after my shower. I am grateful for mindless TV on edgy nights. I am grateful for a reprieve. I am grateful to be held and seen and supported, challenged and tested, opening. I am grateful for help in the garden at long last! I am grateful for my patients and the gifts they bring. I am grateful to have a job with purpose. I am grateful to have the strength and means of pulling through such a day as this one. I am grateful for Chuck. I am grateful for spontaneous Deedle hugs. I am grateful for Mom’s caring words. I am grateful for Mossy/Eden’s email of chicks and care package. I am grateful for the bed that awaits… I am grateful for the grace to laugh at my neuroses. I am grateful to have a hand nozzle again at the kitchen sink. I am grateful for my family’s tolerance of me and love. I am grateful for the chickens’ short memories and forgiveness in spite of daily horrors and neglect. I am grateful for the dog’s forgiveness and ‘living in the now.’ unconditional love. I am grateful for Playfulness. I am grateful for the laughter that comes to break tension and return us back to communion. I am grateful for the willingness of the heart to open in spite of unconsciousness. I am grateful for what comes through in my writing. I am grateful for the daily miracles. I am grateful for the d. I am grateful for the courage that softens the walls of illusion, separation. I am grateful for the places I can still go to hide and the fact I don’t need to go there so much anymore. I am grateful for the times I remember that breathing is an option. I am grateful for the life I’ve been given—not all of me is grateful, and these parts not all of the time. I am grateful to realize this and so I can be humble and pray for union. I am grateful for this day and the opportunities it offers to heal, to forgive, to perceive beauty, to participate in the grand human drama, the celestial movie. I am grateful to have energy to get work done at 3am. I am grateful for my parent’s visit and help around the land. I am grateful for the affection. I am grateful for the two baby chicks. I am grateful for the new chicken coop. I am grateful that Casper is so clever. I am grateful for my ability to see Shenpa!! (hooking left and right yesterday!) I am grateful for this opportunity to give a talk about CM this coming week. I am grateful to be leading a womens retreat!! I am grateful the bees did not swarm. I am grateful for all the new fruit trees. I am grateful for wonderful neighbors. I am grateful to be on top of the inbox once again!! I am grateful for Honey. I am grateful for bed. I am grateful for a vantage point to see the insanity, and the willingness to simplify. I am so grateful to all the positive entities that are hard at work helping us here in this dimension! I am grateful for music. I am grateful for kind strangers. I am grateful for the ocean, and to live near it. I am grateful for the grace that appears at work. I am grateful for loving family on harold’s side. I am grateful for pancakes sunday morning. I am grateful for strong herbs for headaches! I am grateful for craigslist. I am grateful for weekends. I am grateful for gardening maniac neighbors and beekeepers Dan and Lorraine. I am grateful for Les Crowder and Dave Stocks my beekeeping mentors and all around great guys. I am grateful for the new friends I’m making. I am grateful for the Quiet Hours. I am grateful for Pinterest. I am grateful for Big Toe the sweet mother hen. I am grateful for the bees. I am grateful for Jonah my garden angel . I am grateful for Tricia & Bob. I am grateful for Claudia sending farming info my way. I am grateful for Holly and Miles having us over yesterday. I am grateful to have met some of their friends and neighbors; Nice connections. I am grateful for the energy and guidance to be organizing the retreat. I am grateful to have B’s help and support. I am grateful to have the funds and bandwidth to take on the Asheville trip next month, grateful Jeffrey and Cissy are offering it, and that Josephine will lodge me. I am grateful to be working on the novel again! I am grateful for the rain. I am grateful for this opportunity to heal humanity through myself-this human. I am grateful for the oft-neglected big picture, 3rd person ‘movie’ vantage point. I am grateful to be able to meet with my parents on Tues. I am grateful to have Ryan as a neighbor, so helpful with my farming questions, so kind and generous. I am grateful to be getting the knack of K12, finding patience with homeschooling. I am grateful to have asparagus coming up in the garden!! and to have sawdust to amend the blueberries.. I am grateful for Deedle who says: ‘I love you more than you can imagine. I love you to the next galaxy. I love you in all the dimensions. I think love is too powerful to be held in one dimension.’ I am grateful I could use insomnia to accomplish insurance billing! And for the clearing of the mouth of qi! And for the hot tub when I’m cold! And for such a thoughtful, generous, adorable boy. I am grateful we live near the ocean. I am grateful for our awesome rototiller. I am grateful for the motivation to wash windows. I am grateful to have 2 patient boys who put up with my temper and moods and funny ways. I am grateful for michele. I am grateful for strength returning, able to work all day in the yard! I am grateful to meet Kiran, a new friend and to learn more about krauting, lavender honey. I am grateful for my patients. I am grateful for wednesdays free to homeschool my boy. I am grateful for Beverly’s craft night and crafters everywhere! I am grateful to feel love amidst the confusion, frustration, and exhaustion of PMS. I am grateful to have a sister. I am grateful I don’t have to work today. I am grateful we have a home. I am grateful D enjoys learning. I am grateful for BED and TV and movies. I am grateful for weekends. I am grateful for chickens. I am grateful for Pinterest. I am grateful for the beautiful rain and quenched earth. I am grateful for our wonderful new doggie. I am grateful for the fire and cozy living room. I am grateful for technology simplifying things. I am grateful for my new office space!! I am grateful for access and means to healthy produce! I am also grateful for chocolate. I am grateful for harolds family still opening their hearts to us. I am grateful for mom and ron helping and caring. I am grateful for the energy and motivation to clean and organize. I am grateful for the 4 seasons. I am grateful for Casper making it to 8 and thriving! I am grateful for our basement o’ art and all the possibilities therein!! I am grateful for the 4lbs I have lost. I am grateful for our refi going through!! and only 15 years left!! I am grateful for new moons and full moons and remembering to notice. I am grateful for MJ and homeopathy. I am grateful for Christina and Gita. I am grateful for guppy. I am grateful for year of the horse. I am grateful for aromatherapy! I am grateful for cell power. I am grateful for a lazy bath and dumb TV. In this moment I am grateful for having a day off and being w/my family. I am grateful my boy notices when I need a hug and gives really awesome ones!!! I am grateful for having the energy to exercise again, and having the support to make it happen. I am grateful for my delightful boy who colors creative gifts for us w/the 6 colored pencil. I am grateful for my handy sweetie who can repair just about anything (today the hot pot and possibly kitchen scale). I am grateful for our cats, who are just warm and furry and purry and occasionally kill gophers. I am grateful for santa cruz. What a place! I am grateful for our land and all we have accomplished here. I am grateful for the internet–so easy to find info and like minded people! I am grateful that we both have great work we enjoy and aren’t struggling financially.